Pangkor I come~!!

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In a few hours time I will be in Pangkor Island. Yippee~~!!
I'll only be back in KL next year.
So, till then Happy New Year to all!!! =)

Christmas Candy Cane

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Yesterday we had a steamboat cum CG at Pe Shen's place. The food seems little initially so, the host went and dumped like 5 packets of noodles in. Finally, again...there's food overflow. Anyway, it was a good gathering yesterday evening. The ten of us sang, ate, laughed, shared, listened, and prayed together. It was nice. And our birthday boy, bro Ralph even gave us a candy cane each and shared with us the story behind the Christmas candy cane :

A candymaker wanted to make a candy that would be a witness, so he made the Christmas Candy Cane. He incorporated several symbols for the birth, ministry, and death of Jesus Christ.

He began with a stick of pure white hard candy. White to symbolize the Virgin birth and the sinless nature of Jesus, and hard to symbolize the Solid Rock, the foundation of the Church, and the firmness of the promises of God.

The candymaker made the candy in the form of a "J" to represent the precious name of Jesus, who came to earth as our Savior. It could also represent the staff of the "Good Shepherd" with which He reaches down into the ditches of the world to lift out the fallen lambs who, like all sheep, have gone astray.

Thinking that the candy was somewhat plain, the candymaker stained it with red stripes. He used three small stripes to show the stripes of the scourging Jesus received by which we are healed. The large red stripe was for the blood shed by Christ on the cross so that we could have the promise of eternal life.

Unfortunately, the candy became known as Candy Cane-a meaningless decoration seen at Christmas time. But the meaning is still there for those who "have eyes to see and ears to hear."

'07 overseas mission?

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I was telling parents about the electives next year. They happily suggested that I go to travel and work somewhere; self-support it means. On the other hand, it would really be fun to take a glimpse of the outside world. Explore, see and experience I shall go. *hooray* :D

No exact plan, no exact destination, and most importantly no exact financial source to start with. I'll have to do some research on this before i can move on with this idea. Any suggestions, ideas, resources, contacts, links...etc please do share it with me. Feel free drop me a mail, message or some comments. I need them if I were to make this mission possible. Thx! =)

#2 more days to go before 2007 takes over..#

4th anorexia death

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Brazil transfixed by 4th anorexia death

"The most recent victim was Beatriz Cristina Ferraz Lopes Bastos, a
23-year-old teacher whose death Sunday at a hospital in Jau, 200 miles northeast of Sao Paulo, was reported by national television news programs.
Local media reports said she was 5 feet, 2 inches tall and weighed just 77 pounds."

"Anorexia became big news in Brazil last month with the death of 21-year-old
Ana Carolina Reston, a successful model who died of generalized infection caused by anorexia nervosa. She reportedly carried just 88 pounds on her 5-foot-8 frame."

"college student Carla Sobrado Casalle, 21, died in the southeastern city of Araraquara, also with symptoms linked to anorexia. She was just under 5-foot-9 and weighed 99 pounds. "

Whoa..honestly it is scary to be that thin; not pretty.

OK, I may be thin..but not that thin and I am not anorexic. And as i've mentioned before, I am honestly trying to gain healthy weight. As what the creative director of Sao Paulo Fashion Week, Paulo Borges said, "Beauty and fashion is about health in the first place."

So, girls...EAT =)

chasing time & counting down

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It is already the 28th of Dec 2006. I am so not ready for the new year. Year 2007; that is when my one week holiday spells an end. I seriously need to start using my small, pathetic brain and study through and revise, revise and revise because my 2nd Proffessional Exam is haunting us soon in year 2007! Year 2007 also means I am leaving for K.Terengganu year! Year 2007 is when everybody turns another year 'more mature', including me :(

I have so so so much to be done and I've constantly felt that i'm chasing time; I meant almost all the time. If your (I don't recall having one) '06 resolution list(s) is/(are) not all checked, then I shall gladly announce that the dateline is nearer than just around the corner. geez..I am so not ready for you, 2007.

hmmph,lets see..Jeb is leaving on the 10th Jan to Aus; I need to meet up with her. The Nz ppl are leaving soon as well and I have not really met up with any of them yet; I need to meet up with them too. My CNS is still not consolidated in any part of my brain yet; I need to study and brush up. My place is a mess; I need to clean up. I felt so far back,there is much that need to be done. I am constantly trying to chase the time. Will I be able to?

Maybe there is a bright side for me to look at. 2007 can't be that 'un-inviting' afterall. There is lots to expect too i suppose. ermm..maybe like getting a touch of dissecting the cadaver? (hopefully) Well, perhaps I should start counting down for the arrival of 2007... "three!"...


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knockareyouawareofwhatisactuallygoingonherewhatishappeningrightnowthisworldis sofreakingwierdandbecomingweirdereachday

New Diseases In Malaysia

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By Palmdoc

The Malaysian Ministry of Health is now asking the public to be on the lookout for symptoms of the following new contagious diseases.

Severe rashes around the mouth caused by kissing too much ass. The number-one disease in Malaysia amongst civil servants.

Uncontrollable urge to continually dial friends on mobile phone to share with them such important information as “I’m now on the monorail”or “I’m walking towards the car.” Victims can be recognized by large, twitching thumb.

Blotchy skin condition caused by eating too many packets of instant noodles.

Affliction whereby victims make frequent trips to Vietnam,Thailand,Indonesia, and China to take on additional brides.Middle-aged men are at significant risk.

Compulsion to date Asian females. Very common affliction amongst foreign celebrities and caucasian expatriates working in Malaysia. Also known as Pinkerton’s Disease.

Flushed complexion, high blood pressure and sometimes depression at finding out one has not won any gaming numbers and lotteries.

Excessively large breasts. This disease comes in several variant strains…….. Heavytitis A; Heavytitis B; Heavytitis C, and sometimes Heavytitis DD.

Feelings of stress and panic caused by lack of internet access.

A compulsive need to colour one’s hair. Reddish brown tints are the most common symptom, but health authorities have reported a new strain of blond highlights.

Victims exhibit a great need to tokkok. Highly contagious. Spread by ordinary conversation, and may be exacerbated by good food and alcohol. Politicians and lawyers are especially susceptible. Incurable.


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1. Wake Up !!
Decide to have a good day."This is the day the Lord hath made;let us rejoice and be glad in it."

Psalms 118:24

2. Dress Up !!
The best way to dress up is to put on a smile.A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks."The Lord does not look at the things man looks at.Man looks at outward appearance,but the Lord looks at the heart."

I Samuel 16:7

3. Shut Up!!
Say nice things and learn to listen.God gave us two ears and one mouth,so He must have meant for us to do twice as much listening as talking."He who guards his lips guards his soul."

Proverbs 13:3

4. Stand Up!!
. . . for what you believe in.Stand for something or you will fall for anything."Let us not be weary in doing good; for at the proper time,we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good..."

Galatians 6:9-10

5. Look Up !!
. . . to the Lord."I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me".

Philippians 4:13

6. Reach Up !!
. . . for something higher."Trust in the Lord with all your heart,and lean not unto your own understanding.In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct your path."

Proverbs 3:5-6

7. Lift Up !!
. . . your Prayers."Do not worry about anything; instead PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING."

Philippians 4:6

and i saw her saying..

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and i saw her saying..

"My life is a mess but i have a loving family and you.."



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Dear Patrick,

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Dear Patrick,

I needed a hug tonight. Thanks for being here. The room was awkwardly quite earlier on and I have to replay Grey's Anatomy disc1 as a compensatory sound to fill the atmosphere. I have a lot to study; a lot to stuff into my pea brain. On the other hand I need to arrange for tomorrow night's gathering which I dreadfully reply all the incoming texts. The stressful point came. I am very worried. I really needed company, someone to turn to. I turned around and I saw you. Thanks for being there.

Oh, Patrick... do you know that he is sick, and she is sick? It's sad, Patrick. I'm sad. I wish I could go and comfort. I wish I could go and relieve. I wish I could go and make company. But, I can't and I did nothing. I felt sorry and it is sad to just do nothing.

Patrick, I was quite delighted when it is not April that I have to leave. Eventhough I sighed for the time delay, my heart still leaps for joy cause I can't wait to tell you that I can travel to Sri Lanka, India,... I am happy as you can hear because of this news, which I presumed is good in a way. However, 'you' did not seem to show any signs of joy. In fact, I sensed another dose of worry emerged.

Reflecting...and thinking,.. why did I find that I've not really make you happy, as if you never were. You are worrisome, you are lonely, you felt sad...

Patrick, thanks for being here. At this moment I really need to hug you tightly and pour it all out. For now, I could only turn to you. Thank you, Patrick softie.

pain, pain...

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I learnt something and my quote for today:

Even if you are in pain, life still and has to go on; and that's pain.

I am not feeling well. I am in pain. It paralyzes me pretty much; so much so that i have to put a halt in everything. The frust is similar to when you are given tonnes of things to photocopy, which is due very soon. The manpower available? You and 2 photocopying machines. And as if it is purposefully coincident enough, one of the photocopying machine breaks down for some reason and the other one keeps coming up with an error- paper jam. The boss will still come anyhow and expect to collect the products when the time comes and who exactly care for your sick machines and other constraints? None. (well, besides God of coz)

Likewise, I am in pain. So what if the pain makes me handicap and put me into a paralyzing halt? Who cares. Life goes on; time still fly. And I have to somehow get myself prepared for this coming Friday's clinical assessment- theory, PBL presentation a.k.a horrifying Q n A session with our respectful prof, and also the weekly joy-our friday assessment. yay?

argh... that's pain~~



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By saying "whatever", it means you couldn't care less. It consequently flags that you are entering the IDC mode ( "I Don't Care" mode). If one spits out, "Well, fine.. whatever" , it is fine because the connecting relation is growing into dark ignorance. "Whatever" trumpets out voices of frustration as the whisper of giving up creepily sips into the bone. Also, it blares loudly a three-words-phrase, "As you like". It is disastrously poisonous. When thrown at you, it truly pierces you through madly,..and deeply. At the end? It shatters.

So, beware. Coz a word it is but when uttered the story that follows is unammaginable.

ugh..whatever.. Good night~~

i am sexy

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Saturday 02 Dec 2006

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Jolyn is sexy