everything seems BAD; pure BAD!

I have been having this kind of 'bad feeling' sicne weekend and today, it is my BAD day. I have NO mood for anything at ALL right NOW. And when I'm NOT in a good mood, I find it hard to even fake something from a more optimistic or maybe rational point of view. Accumulation of little things happening now and then have rolled up into a gigantic 'bad-omen-snowball', which came crashing from the hill on ME! Yes! Right on me! I was left lying FLAT on the ground. oOH, nothing much... I'm just halfway embedded in the rocky mantle of this planet.

Talking about today alone is enough. This morning, I started this new day afresh but, in no time, I became like this:












A withered flower.

I decline to elaborate further what I encountered. Yeah, true... my morning didn't went quite well but I made it a challenge for me. I see it as a blessing in disguise; as a motivation for me. Hopefully, I'm determined enough to accomplish it. Anyhow, I am NOT done feeling bad about this YET.

Then comes afternoon. With the burning sunlight piercing through my skin, the heat is not something one could enjoy. It is OK if I'm sheltered in a building or in a car. BUT...

I met with an accident. I was driving. At one of the roundabouts, a WIRA was in front of me in the queue. She moved ahead, and i thought she has already moved away. Thus, when I saw that cars are cleared from my right hand side of the road, I moved on. And that is how the accident happened.

All the discussions going on here and there, under the strong UV wave isn't making the situation any better. And i felt so tanned now. Ish! Anyway, cut the crap...So, I have to pay for all the lady's car fixing expenses. The bumper did not seems to be suffering any serious injury BUT the workshop fella was telling us that he will have to put 2 screws in,then order the paint and spray it. What?! Actually, I think that the car can be perfectly alright without any fixing,ok. Anyway, I shall not argue about that. Just,...whatever!

Feeling all sticky and sweaty throughout the rest of the day, the bug bite on my neck grews even more annoying and irritating. Aargghhh~!!! DOnT feel like talking NOW and please DON't come near me or I might end up biting your head off! Ok,that's not for real of course.

Sigh. I am beginning to feel the signs of a breakdown. I desperately need a break.
Oftenly,the strength form 'above' is best viewed, not by IE nor Firefox, but when we come to realize our own weaknesses.

Learning of our own weakness teaches us to lean on God's strength.

ODB

Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, ... My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Psalm 73:23-26

然 而 ， 我 常 与 你 同 在 ； 你 搀 着 我 的 右 手 。你 要 以 你 的 训 言 引 导 我 ，... 我 的 肉 体 和 我 的 心 肠 衰 残 ； 但 神 是 我 心 里 的 力 量 ， 又 是 我 的 福 分 ， 直 到 永 远 。

詩 篇 73: 23-26

4 scene shots (taken 17/02/06- Fri)

-----------------Scenario 1-----------------

A 71 year old man was sent to the clinic by bypassers who saw him fell off his bike. He came in with tremors, giddiness and feeling cold. He was sent straight to the treatment room since this is an emergency case. The medical officer on duty came and did some phyiscal examination on him.

Temperature: 39 oC , has been febrile for past 2 days
B/P : 160/80
Pulse : 119/min
Dextrose stick reading: 11.1 mmol/l

I assumed that she(the MO) also wrote that CVS and respi.system are ok.

He was then given panadol and was sent outside, in the waiting area, to wait for his son. His respiratory rate seems to be increased and is using quite some amount of effort to breathe. (but then, he may still be traumatised)

The son came and I went to notified the MO. She asked to call him in. How bout the patient? She told me it is not necessary. After a few min, he came out with the drug slip. And what did the doc told him (about the diagnosis)? High fever.

Of course, he was adviced to bring his father to the hospital if anything happens. Medications were collected and they left.

-----------------Scenario 2-----------------

All the staff nurse was called to attend some training thingy by the Kementerian from 2pm to 5pm. Hence, there were no nurses around when we came back after lunch. Only some attendants and nurse assistants were around to help manage the clinic. And yeah, there were only 2 doctors that evening (compared to the normal 6 to 7 doctors).

So, we sat and helped at the BP and D/stick counter.

There were only about 3 patients who really need BP to be taken before seeing the doc but we took total of around 10 patient's people's BP. Funny huh? There could be more but we managed to really say "no" to some of them.

These people came to bring their whoever to see the doc, which means they themselves aren't sick. They just wanted to know their blood pressure and whether they are hypertensive. I kept explaining to these people that we don't diagnose you with hypertension with just one reading. Plus, if your reading differs from the normal average value, there could be other contributing factors. Furthermore, we are not supposed to do so because the system doesn't work this way.

And this is what the attendant told me on how to deal with these people: " If we were to allow one person to do this, the rest will follow as well and at the end, everyone will come. Tell them they would have to pay RM1 to register as a patient and get their card if they want to check their BP. Many will try persuade you, of course. If then, just ask them to pay here instead of at the registar. Some will walk off when asked to pay but some will still pay. So just take the money and check their BP. This will all be collected an will go to a fund."

Did we do that? No, it's kinda 'weird' and 'awkward' for us to do so. We tried explaining to them but they are pretty persuasive. Trust me, they are really insistive.

Aunty:
leng lui, can you help me check whether I'm hypertensive?

Me:
huh? the doc asked to check your BP? (reaching out to take the card from her)

Aunty:
No, i actually came to bring my daughter to see doc. This is my daughter's card, not mine. Please help me lar. I won't tell anyone, this is just gonna be between you and me. I have a card with me so people would not suspect. Come lar, ok ah? help me check, ok? See if i have high blood pressure then i can see doc.

Me:
Aunty, you know that i am not supposed to do this. bla bla bla...explaining to her bout diagnosing HPT and etc etc.

Aunty:
oH...like tht one lar...nevamind lar. you help me check and see lar. No harm done. If its high then i can seek medical advice sooner rite.

Me:
(-__-''') sigh...ok, aunty say if realy ur BP is high today, what are you going to tell the doc? tell that you just got ur BP taken by me and the reading is high?

Aunty:
nolar. I won't see doc today. I'll come back few days later.

Me:
and your complaint will be?

Aunty:
Just tell the doc i'm having headache lar. Coz last time there was once tht my BP went quite high ...bla bla bla... Don't worry, i won't tell anyone that you checked for me.

(then another guy, who is persuading my friend to measure his BP, came interrupting...)

Him:
Just check for us lar. We know you are just students. But it is for the benefit of both of us. You see, you get to practice more and we get to know our BP. Isn't that a good deal?

I can't help but to keep laughing...

Aunty:
Yalar, just help me lar. Others won't know bout this.

We gave in.

-----------------Scenario 3-----------------

It was PSY clinic that afternoon. One of the patient come asking me how many injections will he have to take today. I looked at the medication slip. Firstly, i can't really figure out what was written there. 2ndly, how on earth would i know about PSY drugs? From my rationale, my guess is that there would be 2 injections for him. But of course, I told him I'm not too sure about this and told him to ask the people in charge inside the treatment room. He said it is almost his turn to go in already and he knows they would tell him but he just wanted me to help him out a little now. Again, i told him not that i don't want to help but i really don't know about what exactly this medication slip meant. He looked at me, "you don't know how to read meh? These are all words rite?! I'm just asking you to help by telling me what is written because i don't know how to read, like that also cannot ah?!" He got up and walked off, into the treatment room.

-----------------Scenario 4-----------------

A heat of argument between a doctor and a PSY patient's brother. I'm glad tht they did not end up fighting. phew.

Tags: Scene shots

Feb 14 Public Announcement

"Happy Valentine's Day!"

'ka ching!' Thank You! You are the 123rd person to wish me. NEXT!

On this Valentine's day evening, I wish to make a public announcement. To all of you who are reading: I am NOT celebrating Valentine's. As all of us may understand (,if not I am telling you now), Valentine's is a day for lovers. It is a day where couples and lovers show their love to each other. Since I do not fulfil any of the criteria, you might as well save up your texting money and energy; wish some other people who ARE celebrating today,k?

Don't get me wrong. I am not feeling blue or what. It is just like I'm not an Indian, thus, people don't wish me Happy Deepavali because I don't celebrate that festival. Get the point?

Just for your information (and since I've just found out), Feb 14 is also the Single Awareness Day (SAD) .

Read this (from Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia) :

Singles Awareness Day (SAD) is a humorous holiday celebrated on February 14. It serves as an alternative to Valentine's Day for people who are single; that is, who are not involved in a romantic relationship and can therefore not participate in Valentine's Day traditions. Some observers of SAD do so out of spite for Valentine's Day as a Hallmark holiday or for other reasons.On Singles Awareness Day single people gather to celebrate or to commiserate in their single status. Some want to remind romantic couples to remember those less fortunate than they are. A common greeting on this day by its adherents is "Happy SAD!"
The holiday is a good example of self-deprecating humor.

V-Day or SAD , Feb 14 to me is just the same as any other days. I don't mind chocolates, flowers, balloons or any gifts from you though. Similarly, I may not be an Indian but I still take 'muruku'. So, buy it, give it to me and I shall take it with no hesitation.

Anyway, to all those love birds out there, Happy Valentine's Day! And to all the carefree singles, Happy SAD!

Tags: Love

Everyone is talking about it...

Ok, after the previous two random crap post, I'm going into something more serious and heavier. What else? Nothing but the current heat topic; about the caricactures published by the Danish newspaper and also the issues on Sarawak Tribune.

I've personally came across quite a handful of cartoons, caricactures and even movies or shows that make fun of Jesus Christ. I believed there is a lot more published or displayed out there that are offensive not only to Christianity alone but also to our Christ. I am not going to put up any examples here. You can easily get lots of it with a single click on the net.

I am a Christian. US, Britain, Australia,and New Zealand are all Christian countries, and that is only just to name a few. Look at Hollywood, it still seems to stand as grand as ever. I don't recall any 'earth-quaking' news on embassies or flags set on fire because of this. Enlighten me if there is and pardon me if I am wrong because I'm not a knowledgeable person nor am I widely exposed or updated about current issues.

Does that mean we don't care? Does that mean it did not bother me? Does that mean we are allowing it? And are we keeping ourself quiet about all these? No.

The question here is: "Are all these necessary?"

I understand that we are educated that this is a sensitive issue and we must treat it with respect. No objections on that. But, why not take some time, quiet down and DON'T just act on emotions alone? Think about it more objectively. Is there really no better way out? Is damage and pain a must to deliver the message across?

I don't usually talk about all these BIG, heavy issues and especially if it involves politics. This post was inspired after reading the food for thought from kennysia.com and looking at these. Just like what the tittle says, "What's with the commotion?"

Tags: Current Issues

ATM machine

came across this cartoon in today's The Star newspaper

Another good example I've encountered would be "KDU college". When I was studying there, I've always thought it is rather weird; KDU actually stands for Kolej Damansara Utama and yet we often call it KDU college. This college is even registered under the name KDU College Sdn. Bhd. Why huh?

Tags: Random

So, a Pisces I am.

I've got another email from Cosine. He has always been forwarding large sized crappy emails which would only fit into my yahoo mailbox and this is what he forwarded today...

"The top 10 reasons you are..."

So a Pisces I am. Before going any further, let me clarify that I don't believe in horoscope ( I believe in God) and all these is just for the fun of it =)

Ok...lets see:

10. I DO throw things away. Sometimes, something, I may keep. But, not all. It may take time but eventually I WILL throw it away when I really have to. Hmm...does that makes me 'less Pisces?'

9. Really? You are giving me a motto?!? Well, it doesn't sound too bad actually, don't you think so?

8. You call me a recluse??! OK, i feel like being one now. Throat is soaring. Nose is blocked. Watery eyes. Mucus dripping. And I don't feel like talking.

7. Do I?

6. Hope I am. haha.

5. Am I?

4. Huh? What?

3. Thinking kill brain cells so just use your eyes. Look before you leap.

2. I am overwhelmed now.

1. Duh-uh? So I am a Pisces afterall, huh?

Tags: Random craps

Episodic-Imsomnia-Attack

I flipped over and looked at my alarm clock.It is 10 minutes past 5 in the morning. What am I doing at this ungodly hours? Perhaps I should rephrase it; what am I NOT doing at this time? S-L-E-E-P-I-N-G!!! For goodness sake, it is already 5am and I'm still NOT asleep? Gosh! I really feel like banging my head on the wall.

About 20 minutes later, my grandmother got up from her bed and began to utter her morning prayers. I laid back silently and listened to her sweet prayers. When she is done, I tilted my head up a little, "Ah mah! I can't sleep. Now that you are already awake but I've not gotten any sleep yet."

My 'episodic-imsomnia-attack' (EIA) is now at the worst point. I don't fall asleep as easy as other people but it is OK as long as I DO slumber into the dreamland. Sleeping seems a lot tougher when EIA comes haunting me again. No matter how tired or how desperate I need to catch some sleep, I still can't sleep until what may seems a thousand flip-flops over the bed.

So, I got up. Well, something to be thankful for behind this sleepless night; for the 1st time this year i woke up this early without any alarms bugging and I had my part of nice and earliest devotion n quiet time with God. At about 6.45 am, I sneaked into my parent's room and scared the living daylights out of my them woke them up to go for a healthy morning walk.

And alas, I took about an hour nap before being called for lunch. Thats it! I really hope that I can have a nice, beauty and early sleep tonight. I have to wake up early and have the entire day to work on; I'm starting my posting at the community clinic tomorrow. I don't know what awaits me tomorrow but it better NOT be boring. Or else, EIA + boredom = torture.

Jebbrine told me that her experience during her last sem was boring. They pretty much did nothing besides sitting there and sitting there and stitting there. Sad huh? I really hope things will be different for us.

Jeevan told me that when they are starting on the 6th their first task will be venepuncture. *blink*blink I don't know if they are really going to do it, but, it will be rather a great experience and exposure.

As I've said, I don't know what awaits me tomorrow but I am praying for the best and I'm anticipating it!

CAUTION: Ammonic firecrackers

Every Chinese New Year the 'chee-ba-boom' and crackling sound will never fail to add some spice to this festive season, making it merrier but noisier noisier but merrier. Despite all the "On-the-spot RM100 fine" , "Anti-firecracker squads" , and some firecrackers seized here, here , there and almost everywhere , nonetheless, there are still some that managed to smuggle those stuffs in and out. Well, that is how we celebrate Chinese New Year...can't go without 'it',can we?

crackle...crackle...crackle...pOp! And the final firecracker exploded giving off some pale-yellowish green flame, as the ammonia reacted with oxygen (again) in the combustion process. Here is the equation for the chemical reaction that just took place yesterday night:

Ammonia: Hello! Gong Xi Fa Chai!

Oxygen: Hie! Happy Chinese New Year!

(and if you wish that I'll have a HAPPY cny as well, just please leave me alone...)

Ammonia: Hehe. I've finally got through. I've been trying to call you for the past few days but never got through. What happened ah?

Oxygen: huh? Really? I don't know wor...

(I think God forbiddens it)

Ammonia: Oh, nevermind

( YES, you are right! I really don't mind)

Ammonia: You are at home now?

Oxygen: Yeah..

(gulp..*sweating)

Ammonia: Ooh...When are you going back to
college?

Oxygen: erm... (do I really have to answer this?) June.

Ammonia: Oh, you are on a sem break now,huh? That's quite long.

Oxygen: Hehe. Yeah, BUT I'll be starting my posting on the 3rd. It is something similar to what you guys termed as industrial training.

Ammonia: Oh...training. Where ah?

Oxygen: Its in Jinjang.

Ammonia: Whereabout in Jinjang?

Oxygen: (must I tell you? I have a bad feeling here..) Its in a clinic somewhere in Jinjang.

Ammonia: Which clinic?

( What?! Isn't that info enough?)

Oxygen: ....ermm.....uh...( Can you sense that I am really hesitating to tell you this?) Klinik Kesihatan Jinjang.

Ammonia: I see. Today is 30th Jan....(counting)...So, 4 more days before your posting starts?

Oxygen: erm..yup.

Ammonia: Will you be free tomorrow? Can I come to your house?
(I knew it! *RED FLAG* Hazards ahead!)

Oxygen: Oh, my uncle invited my family and I over to his place for a meal.

Ammonia: Lunch or dinner?

Oxygen: ermm....I'm not too sure actually. Will have to ask my parents about it.
[1st lie: It's dinner actually but sorry... I really don't have the guts to tell you]

Ammonia: Like that ah...how about Thursday?

Oxygen: (ok..think of something...QUICK!) Thursday?..hmm...the 2nd of
Feb rite? Ah! I'm going out with my friends. (phew!) [2nd lie]

Ammonia: With one big group of friends?

Oxygen: Yup. With one big group of my friends.

Ammonia: Who ah?

Oxygen: With my freinds from college. ( do you want me to list down their names and contacts as well?)

Ammonia: I want to join.

( NO!)

Oxygen: hehe... ( thats the best response i can give,ok?! It means NO. A big No-NO!)

silence...

Ammonia: erm..ok..how about this Friday?

Oxygen: Friday? (oh no! what am I gonna say now?) uh...what date is it? Hey, its the 3rd isn't it? My posting is starting on that day. (hooray!)

Ammonia: Aiyah...like that hah...eh, I'll call you again tomorrow. So if you are having your lunch with your uncle and finished early, I'll come over to your place.

Oxygen: (-__-) oK (sigh)

Ammonia: Or worse come to worse, I come and visit you and 'pai nian' in the clinic. Its not too far anyway.

Oxygen: hehe..? (*cold sweat..i mean BIG cold sweat...That is really the worst
that can happen. Its a clinic,ok?! NOt my house lar~! And I'm no-one but a student doing her posting there. Please keep 'trouble' far far away
from me.)

Ammonia: Alrite, so bye for now. I'll give you a call tomorrow.

Oxygen: Bye

About 15 hours later, at approximately 2.30pm...

My sis: Jie (it means sister in chinese), your handphone is ringing.

Me: (arrghh..it must be him) oK

walking slowly...(wait! was I even walking to get the phone anyway?) By the way, I was just sending my aunt off that time.

I may walk very slowly BUT my good sister actually came running to me with my handphone. *slap forehead

I reached my hand out at the speed of how an arthritis patient would move, hoping badly that it will be a miss call. I got the phone. And it is STILL ringing! For goodness sake, please STOP ringing. And..wow! It stopped. YeaY! It is a miss call now. Better switch to silent mode now because I know he is a person with great persistence.

Just as I switched to silent mode, he called again. I really don't feel like dealing with this again...and I shall not. I put it in my pocket and started clearing the packet drinks off the living room's marble table.

The vibration stopped. Good! Just as I'm starting to feel a bit relieved, the phone starts vibrating again, with the same caller's name displayed. AAAAAAaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh~!!! Do you know that you are making me to feel really bad?!

And...another explosion occured:

Ammonia: Hi!

Oxygen: HeLlo.

Ammonia: So, you done with your lunch
at your uncle's place?

(since when did i tell you it was a lunch?)

Oxygen: Oh, it is actually dinner. Not lunch.

Ammonia: I see. So you are at home now? Can I come over now ah?

(hold it..hold it...chill out..don't go so fast,Mr. Take things slow & easy,k )

Oxygen: err..I'm going out NOW lar. I'm going out with my aunt. She just came from Johor.
( Oops! Those words just shoot out of my mouth like bullets, without confirming the validity)

Ammonia: going out for a long time?

Oxygen: I don't know but after that I'll have to travel to my uncle's place anyway.

Ammonia: aiyah..like that ah?...I shouldn't have slept till this late.
(no, please don't say so. You'll need all those beauty sleep. Its good for you. Do sleep more.)

Oxygen: hehe..?

Ammonia: well, ok then...happy chinese new year!
(no more ammonic-firecrackers and i'll be happy and grateful for the whole chinese new year)

Oxygen: happy chinese new year to you too! bye!

After the call, I really did go out, not with my aunt but with my family. Ok, so back to the firecrackers issue...

My advice to all of you out there:

Stay out from those explosive items, especially those firecrackers containing ammonia if you don't want to breath in terrible, pungent air. It is evil! It costs you a few lies and it is definitely hazardous. It is a life-threatening item, trust me! The government ban it for a reason and I have all the reasons you can see. So, stay away from 'it' !

CNY donations anyone???

As the chinese new year approaching, i can see people are making their last call to make their new year resolutions here and there. If you haven't make yours, you better do because I don't know when will the next XXX new year or ABC new year will be. See, that's the advantage of living in Malaysia, a multi-racial country!

C'mon lets face it! We all have the lazy germs breeding happily in us, at least in me. Ok, i know I'm lazy and I'm unmotivated. Celebrating another (Chinese) new year after the new year (01/01/06) gave me rooms to procrastinate. I would always tell myself I won't need to do this yet... wait till CNY and I'll do it. It's a new year too anyway, don't you agree?

And now, the DOG is already barking outside the door and (as usual) I'm feeling so unprepared to put my words into action. Urgh. Hmm, when's the next, upcoming 'whatever' new year anyway?

Well,alrite! Ok! Ok! I know! Why do it later when you can do it now, rite?! Hmmph... perhaps some motivation will be a good kick-start to start this brand new year?

Please click to the 'DONATE' icon above to give ME a Chinese New Year Ang Pau- a BIG one preferrably.Thank you! =)

Here is 10 gOoD reasons to gimme an Ang Pau:

1. As a motivation for me. And if i'm motivated, I can start motivating YOU too and you can re-motivate me again and the chain goes on to oTheRs tOo!!! Doesn't that sound great? But right now, I need the motivation...please?
2. Blessed is the one who give...
3. I am broke.
4. I said "Please" and "Thank You"
5. I need to buy new pair of sandals. My sister just broke the last one.
6. I know you ARE a kind person.
7. I will remember you.
8. I will remember your good deeds.
9. I will use the money wisely, I promise.
10. It's Chinese New Year.

AnOther additional reasOn:

11. I will share it with T'ng Eine. (FYI, He is working overseas now and has not been receiving ang paus for the past 3 yrs)

Till then, then have a happy and blessed Chinese New Year everybody! and..psst...remember my Ang Pau-S yea! =)

Something about Penang

I have never thought that the longitudinal difference between Penang and KL is of such great significance (you’ll know why) until we, 8 of us, the KL-ites, Klang-ites & Johor-ian, stumbled upon this small island…

We left Klang around 11am in a yackety-yak spirit but that did not last long. Half an hour later, people had already begun plugging tiny little buds that sing into their ears and lay back in a more ‘comfortable’ position. But, Hello! How comfortable can it be when the bus is taking around 6 freaking hours to reach Penang?! And so, we were finally freed from the bus hostage and yEaY! At last! We were finally fed with food around 5pm; and that was our LUNCH. We were all very hungry but the hungriest are still Joe and Jeevan. Not only did they take 3 helpings each but I think they almost wanted to swallow all the plates and cutleries as well. No kidding, really!

After filling our stomach, we were brought to our shelter in Condo Gembira, which literally means Happy Condo. Ok, we were all happy and we lived there happily ever after. The End.

Chris’ condo was superb and cool. (Note that I said Chris’ condo, NOT Chris. Hehe) He has his own unit all by himself. What can a boy like him ask for more? He is not even 21, but have already accomplished two out of the five great ‘C’s; cash and condo! Give him another few more years, you shall see him having the entire ‘C’ thingy on his hand. Way to go, Chris! Oh, his family? Not to worry. They are great and he has got a real cool mom. All of us had a great time with his mom. She shared with us fascinating stories about our dear Chris and none of us could stop laughing. And on second thought, we all agreed that it would be better to leave Chris at home and hang out with his mom instead coz it is way more fun. But too bad, he is always keeping us away from his mom. Sigh. Despite all that I’ve said, some words of warning to all the vulnerable girls out there, don’t get too near Chris. He has ‘commitment phobic disorder’ and he is ‘playful’…

After waiting for all the guys to wash up and put on their make-ups, we headed to the Kapitan at Gurney’s and had yummy tandoori chick-ies. Yup, that’s our dinner around 9pm. We lingered around the polluted looking beach for a while before driving to Hui Ying’s place. Her house was cool and unique. Her garden is outside the house compound at the first floor!! *blink blink...wow!* After she got some of her stuffs to stay overnight at Chris’ place, we all crashed back at his Happy Condo. Oh yeah, not to forget, Jeevan stole a very useful tool from Hui Ying’s house. The SAHIBA set! Poor boy, he probably thought that it was real money in there. Haha. But anyway, all of us enjoyed playing Black Jack with the 'money'; not a bad entertainment afterall and you'll get to see Noah go bankrupt all the time. lolZ.

It was already 1am when we were back but few of them decided to go out “Dota”. The rest of us stayed back. Rest time? Nope, it was just the perfect time for late night movies. Thanks to Chris’ DVD collections, we never run out of DVDs to watch. They played Dark Water and Flight Plan that night morning. I could barely hold my eyelids up anymore after the first movie and I went ZZZzzz after that. And just as the sun started to rise, Khai Hon started clicking the tv buttons and before you realized, we were all up early in the morning watching tv. (By the way, it was a live award ceremony.) Yawn!

After having our LUNCH around 4pm, we went through some really winding roads to reach Batu Ferringhi. And our main activity for that day was water sports. We got a great deal ( lotsa people told me it was) and we did para-gliding, jet skiing and banana boat. All three for RM 100, isn’t that a good deal? I thought I got the best deal because they told me that they’ll cut my string off while para-gliding and that I’ll land in Indonesia, with no extra charge. But it was rather disappointing. They are bad, con men! They got me nowhere! I was still stranded at the small island…I want my money to be refunded!!! Hehe. Kidding. Anyway, we had real fun time over there. But, thousand apologies to Chris. I did not mean to make you deaf or anything. It was sort of like a spontaneous reaction. So sowwweeee~!!! I know I did get a bit paranoid but the ride was really really fun, especially at high speed. Haha. Later that night, we had our dinner around 11pm. And by that time, I was quite convinced that Malaysia is a multi time zone country. Funny but true, we all sleep and eat at weird time in Penang. Blah. Who cares anyway, most importantly we had fun! Fun fun and fun! Haha.

We went to Batu Ferringhi again the next night after only like what seems a few minutes of shopping in Gurney Plaza because the guys were already too bored.I came out empty handed and I felt the shopaholic-me is still trapped inside. Arrgghhh~!! And it has been jailed inside for ages, how sad it is to leave the shopping world... But,on the other hand, I was reminded that my teacher taught me that we should be considerate at all times. Thus, we (the galz) decided to make a move to meet up with the guyz, who all seems to hold perfectly the title: “Desperate Hubbies”…hahaha. We went to Gurney Drive and had our dinner there. Let me tell you about the top 5 highlights there:

1. Chris had a love at first sight. But poor boy, he was too shy to approach ‘her’.


2. Khai Hon was sweating like a pig and he even finished the whole box of tissues from Hui Ying’s car. Hmm…I wonder what makes him felt so hot?


3. Joe is really a monster. He eats like one! Not to mention that he and Khai Hon were the only 2 who had double lunch that afternoon. (O yea! Noah had a memorable moment in that coffee shop in Lorong Selamat, hehe) But the grand winner is still Joe, the incredible eat-er!


4. Noah and Jeevan had one of their silliest moment. Just throw this question, “What is it that Noah is drinking?" and they will answer you in one voice, “It’s bubur..cha-cha-cha”, whilst moving their body with some cha-cha dance movements that will guarantee to make you puke. Actually, I doubt that it was bubur cha cha because not long after, Noah started to dig some green coloured sago and attempted to sell it at high price to me, saying that it was some slimming oracles. I bet it was alcohol! hehe =P


5. Khai Hon and Jeevan coached me to tell a lie. I was keeping the tickets to Memoirs of Geisha, which we bought earlier on but I denied when Chris was asking about it. I had to confess when he started to call Nithya. Hmm, wait!wait! Some back track here. Back to Gurney Plaza earlier that evening. It has been quite some time that I’ve done something crazy and kinda embarrassing. Guess what we did? Chris grabbed my legs and started carrying me around. Yes, in that shopping mall! Thank goodness I don’t live in Penang. Well, applause for him; for carrying a weight much heavier than he himself. Happy? *blek =P

Oh yea! I was saying, we went to B.Ferringhi again that night. We went to the night market and it was quite fruitful; we all got something and I enjoyed it a lot.

Hmm, I began to feel that this is going a bit too long. Okie-dokie, I’ll just cut the crap. Early on the 19th, we were all feeling kinda sad because we are all leaving the Happy Condo. All of us had heaps of fun under one roof and on one island during our 4D 3N stay and now it's time to leave... We gave each other some hugz and … “Buhbye! Penang!” *sniff..sniff…

It was a quiet journey back KL because all of us are sort of in a knock-off state. I ache all over and every single movement made was just plain difficult and ached lots. As far as I’m concerned, almost all of us fell sick after the trip. The first thing that popped up in my mind was, it must be a Penang curse! Haha. Just joking. Yesterday when I saw May Ching, she was still voiceless. As for me, right till now, my throat is still aching and those stubborn little coughs are still refusing to go away. Shoo! CNY is here and don’t spoil it!




Finally,look at what Penang has done to us...the picture says it all ;)

2005 in a glimpse...

It was a special year. I can now skip all those consent letters that I need to get signatures from mom and dad. And like what most have been telling me, I am now permitted to enter the casino and I’m eligible to vote in the coming election, not like I bother much about all these anyway. 21st birthday are special to a lot of people. It marks the point where the butterfly finally flaps its wing out of the cocoon; it gives an impression where the (ugly) duckling finally turns into a graceful & pretty swan. However, that is only the fairy tale side of it.

Funerals, birthdays, farewells and wedding… a complete combo of occasions and events for one year. I know couples who broke up but I too have witnessed how the magnetic force of the cupid arrows brought two souls together as one. While some has lost love, some has found love, and yet some are still searching for it…

If you were to ask me what is the sweetest moment of the year, I don’t think I would be able to answer. Not because it was a sad, bitter, brewed cup of coffee… but simply because it was perfectly sweetened with a few indistinguishable-which-is-the-best sugar for me to pick on. All the sweet moments that each of you (, yes, you!) has brought have never failed to bring a smile. Frankly speaking, all these would not have existed without you; it feels the best when shared together. I can’t see what is ahead of us and how will time change each of us but for all that we shared, I can only treasure and cherish it because that is all that I have. And of course, how could I forget? Thanks… Hopefully, we will still find the reason to smile in the time to come.

I’m growing, more mature, hopefully, and my cumulative experience has showed me the ugly side of guys. Well, ok, not to forget I too discovered some soft spots and the ‘gentleman’ side of guys. To cut things short, I think that guys are capable of tossing you up and throwing you down, beyond what words can describe.

Sweet and sour seems to come together. Take it or leave it. Would you rather take a tasteless and plain dish? Nah! And since I’ve get to keep those sweet memories, I guess I would have to take the other as well. Tears or laughter; sweet or sour; they are all part and parcel of experience and believe it or not, I trust that all that has been given from above are at our best interest.

Here comes the sour part: I have experienced how disappointments taste like and for obvious reasons, I don’t like it at all. It is no easy task trying to live with disappointments. The villagers only gave the little shepherd who lied about the wolf’s cry two chances. By the third time he called for help, though it is for real this time, his’ call was ignored. My point is, ‘trust’ is really fragile. So, do handle with care. Or my faith will just go fainter and fainter until it is completely gone.

How do one judge when it comes to lying for the benefit of another’s, rather than the other way round? Lie to me, tell me it’s good and nice and bla bla… and just before I dwell in your sweet answers, I found out the naked truth. Sigh. Should I be thankful? Maybe I should. If not, I would have been like a stupid girl sitting there thinking all these is true. You thought you were protecting me from words and comments that might be harmful and hurtful, but did you know that you are doing exactly what you were trying to prevent? For all the trust that I’ve put...

2005 in a glimpse; I have felt disappointed, I felt somewhat betrayed, I’ve walked into depression (but thank God, I’ve walked out of it as well), and I have been hurt.

And talking about ‘H-U-R-T’. I wonder if you would ever know how bad it hurts.
“Yes! Ouch! It really hurts.” I don’t know what do you want from me but please, hear my plea, “please don’t test my endurance any further...”

Now as I’m sitting here alone in my melancholic loneliness, I am thinking…thinking and thinking…what should I do? How do I learn to deal with life better this year? Life will not always deal us with good cards; we have to learn to play the bad cards well.

to be con't

Time to reformat!

Why do we sum up things that we did in the past year? And why do people draw out new resolutions as New Year approaches? Is it a tradition? Is it contagious? Or perhaps a New Year is just not complete without all these. It’s the hot topic for this season. Everybody has their New Year Resolutions (NYRs) all set in their mind, whether just for a mere purpose of “doing-it-because-everyone-is” or they are really solid goals that are to be accomplished without any excuse. Well, if you are ‘kiasu’ enough, you will probably be trembling every time the New Year aura sweeps across you and yet you still have NO resolution(s) for the coming 2006!?

On the other hand, there are people who are trying to be indifferent. Not a bad idea as well when you come to look at it. More are actually concerned on how to keep your NYRs rather than making one. Since you can’t keep it, why make it? That was exactly what I was thinking of few years ago and so, I have decided just to go with the flow, NO NYRs!! YeaY~!

But…last year, things somehow changed. Our youth fellowship leader made us write it down on little cardboards, which will then be the bookmark for our Holy Bible. We put everything in prayers and the bookmark was then nicely placed in the Bible. Well, I would say it is really a good reminder of what you’ve cast unto the Lord, if you have been constantly on your daily bible reading. And hey! I scored more or less 70 %. I was surprised as well. I did not even think I would be anywhere near halfway to make my NYRs a reality. I owe it to Him.

Alright, time for some sum up. Reasons? Hmm…let’s put it this way. Say I’ve just bought a new computer on 01/01/05. And all the happenings have been downloaded and installed here and there. Every now and then, of course it will be infected with spy wares and viruses. Not to forget those safety measures, it has been a norm to run the scans and clear my computer from those filthy pests. Deleted some files, got few program, documents and files organized a bit and here we are… on a brand new year again. But still, it would be appropriate to sort the things if I do not wish to start 2006 with a messy desktop. In other words, it is time to reformat the computer!

to be con't...

KKJU

"Klinik Kesihatan Jinjang Utara." Thats it! This is the place! We drove in to the small compund and parked right beside the Jinjang dental clinic (,which is just beside the community clinic). I stood at the entrance and Ok...so, this is how a community clinic looks like...

People are hustling in and out of the single storey building. All seems to be immersed in their own micro activity. Some are holding little cardboards, flipping it back to front and front to back again. Some are checking on the packets of pills prescribed. Some are scribbling. Some are talking. While some just stares blankly.

There is queue here and there and everywhere. Short queues, long queues. Crooked lines and straight lines. It is hard to tell how long they have been waiting and how many more queues to go before they are done. Red numbers are blinking here and there, directing the patient traffics to their respective consultation rooms. Occasionally, the nurses will pop their head out of the rooms and yelled out some name. The pharmacists too, are calling for patients to collect their prescribed medications. Bewildered by the noice and the crowds, I seems to be the only stationary object standing at the entrance.

Thank God! Everything went quite smoothly. We met with the nurses' head, a nice lady with a sweet smile. She brought us to see a doctor, didn't manage to get her name though. And after a few quick questions from her, it is more or less sorted out. It didn't take long and I don't think we should be taking much of her time because when we were in her room, patients and nurses were coming in and out, interrupting our conversations. But then again, we are actually the one disturbing. I overheard a few things while I was standing in her little, compact room which makes me go "whoa!"

Patient: Doktor, saya sudah lama batuk. Makan ubat pun masih batuk.
< Doctor, I have been coughing for quite some time, even after medications >

Doctor: Mmm...( flipping the patient's records), apa ubat awak ambil?
< Mmm...(flipping the patient's records), what medications did you take?>

Patient: Tak tau...Saya pergi Hospital Selayang, mereka kata jantung saya ada lubang...
< Don't know...I went to Selayang Hospital and they said there's a hole in my heart...>

A nurse came in and the patient was put on hold. I don't recall her knocking the door but anyway, she came in and showed the doctor a patient's profile, who was referred to a hospital but was sent back here for medication. But, wait!! I mean..whoa! a hole in the heart, doesn't that sounds serious to you?

Nurse: Doctor, this patient was referred to the hospital but now they sent him back here for medication.

Doctor: (looking at the profile)...blood sugar level is twenty plus..oh,ok.. i see...this patient was refered because of uncontrolled diabetes.

Doctor: Kaki dia sudah potong ah? (in a very 'selamba' tone)
< has he got his leg amputated?>

*blink! blink!* Whoa! all these people are talking as if all these are nothing but normal, mundane happenings.

After getting the stuffs settled, we were then introduced to two IMU's students who are also doing their posting there. My gut shrinks and twist tightly. One of them was holding a notebook while observing whatever those people are doing. Gosh! I felt like I got shot by a shrinking machine and the few nanometres me is now shaking hands with the two gigantic IMU girls. But one of them do look really nice, pretty and sweet though...I figure out that I'll probably like her better. Haha. Hope we can all get along when we are starting our postings soon though it seems that the doctor and nurses are quite keen to get us started right at that moment.

暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情
还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑

眼前的人

是不是同一个

真实的你

暧昧让人变得贪心

直到等待失去意义

无奈我和你

写不出结局

放遗憾的美丽

停在这里

by 杨丞琳

A song i've downloaded not long ago and set as one of my handphone's ringtone...

My sister's 'masterpiece'

Thats it! I have to get my eyes off the books for a while-time for a bReAk! No 'kit-kat' here, hence, I forcefully robbed the computer's seat off from my sister so that i could check my mailbox, read some blogs, and browse around. Yeah, i know..I'm a bad sister..haha.

She went and undress my laptop out of its casing. I thought she just wanted to listen to some songs stored inside but very soon, the tip-tap and click-clack rhythms was playing as a musical accompaniment to the Jay Chou's songs. I turned to look at her, raised my eyebrows...

"what are you doing?"
Giving me a mischevious grin,"You'll know..."
oK..I smell something fishy here but I couldn't really be bothered.

"Alrite! It's done! hehehehehehe.."
"really? come, let me have a look on what have you done to my poor laptop."

And here is the little masterpiece from the cute,little, mischievious brat:

WARNING: this story contains doink doink material and is not
suitable for some viewers.

Jo Lyn is a doink doink girl. Once she went for a walk in the garden behind her house. Being the doink doink girl she is, she accidentally fell into the drain so everyone tat was at the garden saw this laugh so hard at the poor doink doink Jo Lyn. She was so embarrassed that she ran all the way home, but while she was running she came across a pile of dog and cat and cow and bird shit, because she was running so fast, she wasn’t able to avoid that doink pile of shit, she lost her balance n fell face first into the pile of shit. She was so upset and smelly that she ran right home. From that time onwards she’s known as the smelly doink doink girl. All this got her very upset, all the mockery’s so she decided to turn to Munchies. Slowly she became addicted to the munchies. She would chomp and chomp the munchies with a maniac smile, no one could stop her or stand in the way between her and the Munchies.
That is the story of how Dr.Jo Lyn got her nick name, smelly doink munchie
addict. The moral of the story is, never fall into a drain and then into a pile
of shit mixture, most importantly never turn to munchies because munchies will
not solve your problems. The End~!

Attention to all the honourable readers of my blog:
This story has all the intention to implant improper messages and values into your brain cells. Don't buy this!Its not true! I posted this up just for a mere laugh to brighten your day up =)
Note 1: I'm just a normal student (the "Dr" tittle can be deceiving)
Note 2: Munchie- Vanilla flavor love letters are just IRRESISTABLE~!!! Yummy...

Alright, time's up! My sister is throwing tantrum and that means "Hands off the computer!"

the weird singaporean guy

• I've finally watched Harry Potter with my sister today. Yeah we've got the front row but it wasn't that bad. At least mission accomplished and the promise is fulfilled. It is certainly worthwhile to pay a student price of RM6 for this 2 1/2 hours movie. Though the book was better but, No regrets.
• As we were walking into the shopping mall, a singaporean guy came asking us for some RM10 charity postcard for a centre which is somewhere in my housing area. I was a bit in doubt,honestly. Anyway, I gave him 10 bucks. End of story? I thought so as well, until this guy started asking ...

"can we be friends?"

In reply, I smiled.

Silence. (erm..ok)

"Well, we are friends now since I bought the postcard from you" (ok,friend..bye!)

"If you don't mind i would like to get your contacts?"

My sister and I exchanged looks. (can we like say no?...mommy told us not to talk to strangers.)

"It's ok, don't worry. I won't do anything to disturb you. Errmm.. maybe if you can't give your phone no, u can give me your msn add. Do u use msn?"

I was tempted to say "no" but i was feeling the guilt if i lie but maybe some ammendment. " Yeah, but we SELDOM use it..VERY RARELY we use it"

"Its ok. Don't worry. Just msn. But if you want to give phone no as well, i won't mind of course"

(but i do mind giving you phone no)

I gave my msn add reluctantly since he was standing there with the pen and paper all ready, which i come to think of it now...was it a bit dangerous and tht i am acting stupidly actually?

Then... "Did you all participate in the superstar contest?"

"No-lar...haha" (puh-leeassee..)

"Oh..I am you know." (and the rest of the conversation i wasn't sure what was he talking about)

• There's some more to blog about BUT i am getting sleepy. Got to go to bed...need to rest and conserve the energy for I really NEED TO STUDY, study & STUDY ~!!!

Luke 22:42

"Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done."

Luke 22:42

"父 阿 ！ 你 若 愿 意 ， 就 把 这 杯 撤 去 ； 然 而 ， 不 要 成 就 我 的 意 思 ， 只 要 成 就 你 的 意 思 。"

路 加 福 音 22:42

10 gift rules for men!

I am now locked in the room, alone, supposedly to be studying and revising if not for this week's formative assessment, then for the coming finals.arrgghh~... I may be physically bound to just sit there pouring over the notes and books but my brain and my mind doesn's seems to be very cooperative at the moment. Right at the time when i desperately need some distraction, some entertainment, and something off my studies, I found my old, faithful, CLEO mag inside my drawer. YeAy!!! Though its old (yeah,its Dec 2004's ) but can be quite useful at times like this.

There was an article that is probably worth sharing with you guys :- "10 gift rules for men!"

Lately, i have encountered some guy friends who are complaining about difficulty buying gifts for girls. Either it's for gift exchange, birthday prezzie or christmas gift, they have a similar, standard remark saying that it is TROUBLESOME and is DIFFICULT. Hmm..really??? I thought it is even harder to get stuffs for guys. Look, there are tonnes and variety of things out there that you can actually pick from and buy for the females. And where does the difficulty actually lies? Perhaps it lies on what is (hopefully) the right gift for (the specific) her?

Since its a Dec 04 mag, this article is about tips for men to get the right Christmas gift for her. So, the 10 rules of Christmas are...

Rule No.1: Stop, Look, Listen.
- she's probably been dropping hints since July, so, guys, please put on your antenna.

Rule No.2: Feather That Nest.

Rule No.3: When In Doubt, Buy Both.
- wow! goodie goodie! hehe...

Rule No.4: Don't Let Your Magic Formula Wear Out Its Welcome.
- if you manage to get it right 1 year, don't think you have found the universal answer. well, i guess you guys may really need to do some homework here.

Rule No.5: Lingerie- The Gift That Keeps On Giving.
- well, i personally don't know if it applies to you. hmm...Doesn't seems too appropriate, does it?

Rule No.6: 100 % Accuracy + 10% Flattery
- this rule is related to Rule No.5

Rule No.7: Hands Off-It's Hers.
- this means NO giving her a tool set you are looking forward to use it yourself.

Rule No.8: Christmas Eve Shopping
- everyone knows it but yet,so many guys continue to break it. Here's a scenario: someone's boyfriend, having left it too late, tried to pretend on Christmas morning the reason he'd not bought her a gift was, "Oh i thought we weren't celebrating Christmas this year"

Rule No.9: You Can't Cancel Christmas.
- hehe..better come out with a not so lame excuse next time ;)

Rule No.10: Buy It With Love...Merry Christmas!
- the most crucial rule, if honestly observed will excuse you from breaking almost any number of the others.

Right, i guess thats all for today's lesson. You are certainly more than welcome to browse my copy of Cleo if you want =)